i wish

i wish i could call you friend and have something to show for it
i wish i could share reaffirming words that youd believe
but i know you and your heart would count them empty
i wish i could tell you i love you and you wouldnt ask for the truth
oh how my heart breaks for you
the eloquence of words seems feeble and mindless
but all that i wish to say is how i truly feel
but simple words dont make them real
and i feel i have no room to move
to truly speak
what friends we use to be
and how i pray to God to let us be again
not a day goes by where i dont wish to bring you life from Christ
the world doesnt know you but you listen
it doesnt love you but you trust them
lives without discipline
void of authority from Heaven to speak and be heard
they speak and you hear as you desire
if you hear at all
and true love, real love
for this there is no place
no craving
no wanting if theres a cost
youve already lost enough
you demand justice
but what about peace
is there room for lasting relief
my heart breaks with you out of reach
it aches from your disconnect between knowing and believing
and even though what i say is true
i know my words wont penetrate the core of you
its well guarded
and perhaps rightfully so
but perhaps wrongfully so
youre greatest adversary is the very thing locked away
i pray desperately for escape
but you cant out run you
you know i speak true because youve tried
multiple times
but you can only travel so far behind closed doors
but love has the key
forgiveness sets the slave to freedom
powers of darkness have no choice but to flee
i cry because you cant see what we see
you dont know why i love you
why i would fight for you though i fight with you
you dont know why you matter
but not for lack of being told
your heart through all its hurt simply doesnt know
words of peace and rest dont civer the pre-exsisting mess
and this is what you tell yourself
that the state we found you nullifies what we think
or who we know God ordained you to be
your hopes have fallen
your optimism dwindles
and im crying for you
friend please come home
and this i plead with all urgency
your soul is priority
friend this is an emergency
desperation is tiresome
your strength is wearing thin isnt it
reach out your hand
let your heart believe
that i speak i cant show you now but i still mean
none of my words in this hour would change crippled beneath your fear
by my prayers ill carry you
though my eyes have not seen
and my ears havent heard
i have not forgotten
someday i will call you friend and i will have something to show for it
i will speak words of life that you will walk out in belief
one day i will tell you i love you and this will be enough truth
some day this will make a difference
some day youll know you were never left alone
never left unloved
i pray for that day
i pray for that hour
and i pray it soon