I'm Supposed to be Enough

i've only ever wanted 
your love
and i've only ever asked 
to be enough
but somehow
you never heard me
even when i was screaming
i had stayed quiet for so long
waiting
the silence became deafening
and i did everything you asked of me
i gave everything you asked from me
now remind me, 
for what?
because somehow it still wasn't enough
the dress wasn't short enough
my hair wasn't long enough
dinner wasn't hot enough
your clothes weren't dry enough
the house wasn't clean enough
my mouth wasn't quiet enough
nothing i did was ever enough
nothing
and you were too busy criticizing what i did
to ever notice who i was
and i am supposed to be enough
i wasn't striving for attention
i wasn't aiming for perfection
i simply wanted your seal of approval
on the good days
the bad days
and even the ugly ones
but even the best days weren't enough
and when your best day with my wasn't enough
it meant i wasn't enough
and you can spare me the forced pity
and don't try to tell me it isn't true
what's truer still is i feel sorry for you
because you were enough for me
the good, the bad, and the ugly
i would've loved all of it
because no matter the day
it was still you
i may not have liked it
i may have hated it
but i would have loved you
i wasn't blind to your short-comings
and i wasn't pretending we had something we didn't 
but just being with you was enough
everything else was perfect
even in all its imperfection
everything else was
more then i asked for
and soon it was only everything else that i got
you never said it with your lips
but my heart got the message loud and clear
the honeymoon was over
one day you woke up and realized this wasn't it
and i all but begged you to tell me the truth
even in the end
you never really did
and even then, in that
your message was consistent
i wasn't enough
i wasn't enough to keep you
i wasn't enough to hear the truth from you


i wanted one thing
and you gave me everything but...