Un-Shocking News

I can't get the picture out of my head
I was shocked to get the news
But not by the news itself
I thought I use to know you
Now I know
I knew nothing
I thought the news would make me sad
Angry
Thought it would hurt me
And it would have
If
You had done it to me
But you did nothing
(you didn't even tell me)
The truth simply and
For a moment only
Stunned me
And then I moved on
Almost as if
I had heard nothing
And that's what I'll pretend
Because
None of it
Was anything
You said
Someone else thought
Your life was still an open book to me
I didn't think to mention
I didn't like what I was reading
So I closed it
I closed it before this chapter was written, but
I received an incomplete excerpt
(with a warning it only gets worse)
And now I can't forget it
I close my eyes and all I see
Is this horrific image
Of someone I once knew
Entangled with the enemy
All those times I heard you preach
And your pleading words made me weep
Now those moments make me sick
All your words the same
Hypocrite
But I'm not angry
You just won't find me
Very trusting
Because you don't know you
And I use to believe that even if
You didn't
I could
But now I know that's not
True
And I can't trust someone I don't know
Even if
I want to
(I learned that from you)
But you can trust me
The truth isn't going to hurt me
And I won't use the truth
To hurt you
You can tell me
Or don't
I'll pretend I don't know
I don't need all your secrets
I just need to know the person
Beyond all the mistakes
Even if that person
Is fragile
And afraid
I'm not angry
Neither am I hurt
And if I'm sad it's ony because
You thought you couldn't tell me


One day I'll read the whole story
From cover to cover
And I'll see things differently
One day the main character
Won't be a stranger


I believe that with all my heart