Dad,

I worry about her happiness
About breaking the news she can't find it in this
It's everything she wants but not enough
And settling is better than believing it won't come
'it' being something better
But in settling you make the same admission
It's just your actions that are saying it
Nothing is going to be perfect
Even with the very best
What you lack is being content
And that's a process that you won't master in a lifetime
So most people quit before they even start
Singing the tune 'i can't' all the way to their grave
It's a damaging mistake
You hurt yourself and the ones you promised never to
I don't want that to be her
Insecure and alone
Always looking over her shoulder
Watching her past on repeat
The first take, the final cut
No chance for editing
She already knows something is missing
But would she do whatever it takes to have it
Does she even think she can
How do you tell someone their empty
When life has handed them so much
Without the gift of life itself
The rest of it means nothing
But could she see it that way
Would she be too afraid of letting go
Because of all that could change
My heart breaks for her because I see the longing
She tries hard not to acknowledge it
How do you tell, even yourself,
The one you love is not enough
How do you tell her she has that right
When she could lose that life
The one they planned
The one she tries so hard to want
The one she tries hard to convince herself is everything
Who knew that everything was going to feel so uncertain
That wasn't part of her plan
None of this was in fact
Truth is she never really had one
Life just happened and she went with it
Now she finds her heart in this mess and
She doesn't know what to do with it
She can't fix it and neither can he
She gave up trying to do it on her own
And doesn't trust him enough to let her heart go
So it lies in ruins on the floor
It's damp
And dark
And cold
But for so long now it's all she's known
What's the use in trying to change it
She's still not entirely use to it
But to attempt to change it's surroundings all together
She could lose herself and all of this
Forever
Is that a chance she's willing to take
If nothing works out the way she plans
It will simply be one more mistake
Another hurt her heart can't take
But what she forgets to understand
Nothing has gone the way she planned
Not once
That's the clause in 'free will'
It never really does
But she doesn't see that
She can't
She tries to make sense
But never fully understands
She has a head full of dreams
But a heart full of warnings
Don't do this
Don't admit that
Don't be honest, he won't come back
Her aching heart reminds her of all the ways it didn't work before
It logically seems the only option
Is to do nothing
But there's nothing logical about emotions
Dad
It's easy to say this
From the outside looking in
I see it on her face even she sits next to him
There's something missing
But she doesn't have a handle on it yet
When she does
I hope her heart is strong enough to take it
Especially if life takes it all away