What Are We Doing?

I wanted, I needed almost anything from you
I could have handled anything but the truth
It hurt to watch you hurt me
You never did blink twice
It's funny to watch the tables turn
You want back in my life
Fool me once shame on you
But fool me twice and the fault is all mine
And to think I ever thought
I couldn't live without your love
I'm living more now than I ever was


Five months of silence and now here we are
So much more than a thousand miles apart
I thought I use to know you but all that's changed
I don't care to play these games
So tell me what were doing
How do you explain any of this
Am I the only one of the two of us
That none of this settles with
It's true youre free to come and go and stay as you please
It's unrealistic to expect that I'll be waiting


I can't even pretend that I understand
There are days I won't and the rest I just can't
None of this makes sense
There's nothing I can wrap my head around


What are we doing
What is this, what are we
This undefined, surface lying shit doesn't work for me
I want what we were with who we are now
But I don't even know what you want
Or why you came back


You said you didn't know me
And didn't trust me
Told me that I was a stranger


Do you know me now