Ten Digits

ten digits away at the very best/at the worst she never answers the phone/never thought doing nothing would be the hardest/every day a battle I don't think I've won/can someone tell my aching heart how to let go/it's like she's in my living room/afraid to get comfortable/a haunting memory of what will never be/I was doing just fine/learning how to survive/now I have to learn again/as we try to be friends/even at the thought of your voice/my days turn into white noise/I have to readjust the sounds/now that you're back around/but I don't know if I can/I wrote you a book/and I poured my heart out/now I'm going crazy/to drown out the sounds/the echoes of us/they're causing this chaos in my head/I thought this was dead/and I was learning to survive with it's absence//I never stopped loving you/even though I tried/I never stopped missing you/though I refused to cry/I couldnt get myself to forget/but I begged to/it broke my heart to remember/but I couldn't erase you/I would look at pictures of us/and try to set myself free/but the longer I looked at us/the stronger the hold of the memories/if all I had to hold was what I could remember/I would stare at those pictures forever//so tell me what do I do now/were so close and still so far/how do I reach you without losing me/can we be us without destroying anything/I have hold of the questions/right or wrong I have them all/I need them to be answered now