were all looking for a life that makes sense somehow

'why' is a popular question. why her? why him? why now? why me? why did he leave? why did she die? why did it end? why didnt it work? why wont she come home? why life? why love? why loss? why? we all want to know that theres a point, that theres a rhyme and reason to all of this we would rather do without. we dont know what to do with most of what life hands us and we want to know why we have to deal with any of it at all. we go through life searching for a singular answer that makes sense, but how many actually find it? if you have found it dont let it go and if you havent dont stop searching for it. you will find it if you truly want it and when you do give yourself whole-heartedly to it because it gives you reason for everything. when it all finally makes sense dont question it, trust it, rest in it. it will give you the strength to take on life, both the best and the worst of it. it will give you the freedom to let go of what you dont need and the endurance to defend what you cant live without at all costs. why is the question that lingers between victory and defeat. why is the question to which to answer could elevate or bury you. why today? why that? why not? every time you ask why you get a piece of the puzzle that is sure to be completed. one day you will cross that threshold and smile to yourself because you will realize 'thats why'. all the pain, the sweat, the tears, the bitter hours filled with angry words, every moment was leading to this. and in that moment you can let go and hang onto only what makes sense. thats the beauty of it.