a little too use to being alone

its hard for anyone to see your heart for you dont wear it on your sleeve. its easily unprotected when it can be seen. and youre use to having to guard it from the world and yourself. people always leave. people always lie. people break their promises by not being there like they said. and eventually your heart cant be broken anymore because you stopped letting anyone close enough to put it back together. life ground your shattered fragments into dust and you swept them under the rug. you tell yourself its okay just to cope. fighting to believe its normal to be alone. trying your best to put on a brave face while falling to pieces. you long to wake a heart long afraid to feel. but are stopped by the fear of it being handed back to you, mangled and empty. you would love to be wrong but no one seems strong enough to hold you. and all you need is one. one safe grasp to make all the pain go away. youve come to terms with being alone forever. but your silent tears hope for someday.